Tuesday 27 December 2011

christmas hohoho?

Christmas holidays was awesome. At last i was at home, spending time with mama and my sis. Papa? Macam chipsmore kejap ada kejap takda. Too busy with his getah stuffs. Well, actually nothing much happened since i went back just for FOUR days. Let me summarize everything i did, the place i went to and what i had.

Nasi ayam. Wangsa walk. 3 new blouses. Adik bought Domo's school back, euw. Bubletea. Hot & Roll. Seri Maya. Selayang. Wafle. That's it.

Yesterday i got back here at 9.30 pm. Then quickly finished up my lab report. And sleep while on the phone with you (:

Today i need to move my freaking ass. Lots of works to do. Chiao.

Tuesday 20 December 2011

apple of my eye

Hari ni buka mata fikiran terus melayang teringat si dia. Terasa bersemangat untuk menghadapi hari. Untuk tahu ada si dia yang memerhati, terasa hidup teramat bermakna. Rasa sayang makin bertambah dari hari ke hari. Aku harap ianya tidak akan berkurang walau sebesar kuman. Jika hilang cinta ini, tentu hilang arah tuju hidup. Akan aku pastikan cinta terus bercambah.Tidak akan pernah hilang dimakan waktu. Tak sabar rasanya bakal mengharungi masa hadapan kelak bersama. Berjanji sehidup semati. Di saat itu langsung aku setuju hanya dirimu yang satu. Insyaallah cinta ini tak kan mati dimamah usia. Kau sentiasa indah dimata aku. Setiap nafas, detik jantungku, juga kelipan mataku, aku selalu memikirkan dirimu.

Monday 19 December 2011

new chapter begin

Dear insecurity,

You're totally a jerk. Starting from now, i am leaving you behind. I'll put more faith in every single moment i'll spend with him. There's nothing to be afraid with what might come in our future. I am throwing away my past. Now it's time for me to focus in my studies, family and him :)

To someone,

I want you to help me by staying with me, trust me and never stop loving me. I wanna give another chance for myself, to completely trust someone i love.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
It is never rude or selfish.

Sunday 18 December 2011

i think this song describes us

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanya kan engkau soalan yang sama
Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia
Apa kau buta apa kau pura pura suka

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa
Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita korea
Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara
Tapi dia jelas jujur apa adanya

Aku lagi kenal dia

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Kau sangat manis aku ini pula dawai besi

Dan setiap seratus lima puluh juta nya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku sambil berkata

Sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa
Tapi sayang tahan kalau salahnya saya
Sayang mungkin saja kerasa kepala
Tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua

Saya kenal sayang saya

Buat apa dicerita bahgia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya peduli orang kata
Baju ronyok tak apa asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suara ku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua ;)

they said

PEOPLE SAY WE LOOK CUTE TOGETHER. REALLY? :)

Thursday 15 December 2011

pagi yang indah

Hari ni tak turun dataran, got assembly -.- stupid assembly. Come on, we're not high school students, dude. Assembly reminds me of school. Need to beratur, and get ready for the spot check. Kuku tu mesti pendek, if tak for sure akan kena ketuk. I hate prefects though i used to be one of them. But i managed to stay for one year only, then i changed to librarian. I hate school cause i'll never feel like im one of the students. People might call me weird, who cares. Yes, i used to be something weird. Or in other word, a loner. I am not into friendships thingyy. Itu dulu. But now i learn how to make friends though it's quite awkward at first. At least i am trying.

It's about 4 months left, then i'll be no longer be here, around Penang. Tak tau bila lagi boleh datang sini. I've decided to apply dentist at UKM. Pray for me, for this last semester. I need to be a doctor. And what make me so sad thinking that i'll be no longer staying here is you. For sure susah nak jumpa nanti. I'll be missing you like crazy :( Really hope kita masuk U sama nanti, or at least satu negeri.

'Saat saat yang mengembirakan buat I adalah
bersama dengan orang yang I sayang'

I LOVE YOU :')

Wednesday 14 December 2011

bug

I cursed a lot nowadays. Since i am a girl, so i think i should throw away this bad attitude. I HAVE TO. I need to remind myself to be careful in whatever that might come out from my bad mouth. Someone, please reminds me always.

Monday 12 December 2011

happy to know you're here

I wonder how my life could be now, if you're not here with me. Im sure it'll be absolutely simple but yet i realized it'll be incomplete. Some people said, single is better, free from problems, no tears, no misunderstanding. BUT i think i prefer something complicated to make my life become more meaningful. With you here, out of sudden came into my life, i feel so lucky to have you, to own you, to say that you're totally mine, to hold your hand tightly, to get to know you well. You know what, your heart is stereo and it beats for me ;)

How do i get through a night without you
If i had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
I need you in my arm, need you to hold
You my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you will take away everything
good in my life, and tell me now
How do i live without you
I want to know
How do i breath without you
If you ever go
How do i ever survive
Without you there'll be no sun in my sky
There'll be no world left for me
I'll be lost if i lost you

ps : i love you :)

Sunday 11 December 2011

Wednesday 7 December 2011

wish you were here

I can be strong, I can be tough
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall you just walk thru it

And i remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running thru my head
You're always there you're everywhere
But right now i wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now i wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to make you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to make you near, near, near
I wish you were here

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
 We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss
I just wanna let you know
That I'll never let you go

Tuesday 6 December 2011

Alhamdulillah :')

Terima kasih Ya Allah, kau berikan aku lagi peluang untuk bangkit kembali. Perbetulkan segala kesilapan lalu ku. Menunjukkan kelemahan dan kelebihan ku. Memberikan kejayaan yang tidak ku duga. Redhai lah jalan ku ini. Aku bersyukur. Alhamdulillah.

ps : This is for my mum and my dad :')

tomorrow is the day

This night is the toughest night i've ever been thru, wondering what will happen tomorrow, my future, their hopes, what i've dreamed before, what could possibly i'd be 10 years from now. *Sigh* A doctor? nahh, mimpi je lah. Maybe something different, or something weird. But i just hope i'll be someone who'll contribute something for my country. And i'll be something i love, not because of what others want me to be but because i choose my own path. My own destiny.

I know something bad happened tonight but i cant figured it out. Her voice, her weak voice make me worry. I asked her what's wrong, why she sounds so sad. But like what i've expected, 'everything's fine'. I really hope that's true, though i know its not. I hate this feeling. Make me stress.

ps : Esok result pspm 1 keluar. I know i'll cry but i wont let people see im crying.

Monday 5 December 2011

still new

Last Friday night was AWESOME! Love you guys so much :)

.2nd December, 2011.
It was the best night ever. IN MY LIFE. Really wish we could do it again :)

ps : Meet Balqis and Wardah :)

saat itu aku setuju hanya dirimu yang satu

.30th July, 2011.

Around 9 pm. Still remember the moment, you were sitting in front of me trying your best to finish up your 'proposal'. Kinda cute you know. I really wish i could see again those cute expressions ;)

Its 4 months already :)

Really happy to know you're still standing here, beside me holding my hand, looking at me thru your sepet eyes, and faithfully being my guardian angel.

I wont promise everything will be perfect, but i promise i'll try my best to make it slightly perfect for us. My love for you is unconditional and it will never end as long as i live.

Setiap panas dan terik, setiap denyutan nadiku, setiap nafasku, aku akan selalu berada disisimu.

Tuesday 29 November 2011

reasons why your boyf left you

Guys are all the same? I bet most of girls out there will surely agree with this statement. Emm, yah i admit most of the guys are just same. They wont satisfied with what they have. They feel incomplete. Sometimes they dont know how to appreciate you and at the time they lose you, haaa baru hang menyesal? Dah terlambat laaaaaah.

BUT!

I still believe they're a few different guys out there, who knows how to appreciate us ;) who'll always be with us in whatever condition. Who'll sacrifice everything for us. Trust me, THEY STILL EXIST.

Padia lari topik ni =.='

Okay now me gonna tell you guys few reasons why your boyf left you. Some might be right, some might be not. This is based on what i've experienced and what i've heard before.
  
  1. They start to feel bored with relationship. Or in other word, they're tired with commitment. That's why in a relationship we have to keep on doing new things with our partner. It'll be better if we do some crazy things.
  2. They feel like they dont deserve you. Actually i dont really think this kinda situation exist. But still i'll put it as one of the reasons. Maybe he feels that you'll be better without him because of certain reason. But still i dont really agree with it -.-
  3. They fall in love again with someone else. Some said if you already have a girlf and then you accidentally fall in love with someone else, just leave your girlf because if you really love her you'll never look at any other girl.
  4. They dont really love you. Maybe they were planning from the start to try their market or betting with their friends. JAHAT KAN? D: But remember what goes around comes around.

Actually banyak lagi sebab tapi tetibe rasa macam malas pulak nak menaipnya. Later i'll continue okay? :)

Bye yols.

ps : im not feeling well since last night -.-
pss : tomorrow will be our 4months anniversary :))

MUCH IN LOVE WITH MY HAZIQ

Wednesday 23 November 2011

bad day

Im worry thinking about what i'll get for my pspm 1. I heard they might send our result straight to hometown. Mama will surely faint after seeing her daughter's result. Im sorry mama.

BUT..

Whatever happen i have to face it. I wont cry, i wont be sad but maybe i'll feel disappointed with myself. I've tried my best and what will i get are based on what i've studied. So there's no point if i cry like hell. It'll be better i start to wake up now, for this semester. Im planning to change the course that i'll be taking next year. Later i'll tell you guys. For now, all i can do is try as hard as i can. Concentrate. FIVE months left for me here. Please make me strong.

Tuesday 22 November 2011

sorry to say

First of all, i wanna say that this entry wasn't made to hurt anybody's feeling. But based on what i've experienced before. And im not gonna say that im good enough to speak like this. Im just a normal girl who always wish to speak out loud everything that ever crossed in my mind, but i know i cant. Could you imagine what will happen if i can possibly speak everything without thinking?


PEOPLE WILL KILL MEH.

Oh, lets go back to the main purpose i wrote this entry. I hate people who's always blame others' mistakes like they're GOOD enough to do that. Puh-leaseee? You ain't that perfect. So stop listing other people's mistakes. Think first before you speak. Respect others' feelings. I know maybe there's someone who's pissing you off. But cakap elok elok tak boleh ke? -.- CHILL LAH! tak payah nak menggelabah sangat.


AND...

I don't say im a good person, but im trying my best to change. To be a better person. Just i need one more chance to repair everything back. Just one more chance.


PROMISE I'LL BE A GOOD GIRL AFTER THIS

Monday 21 November 2011

once in a lifetime

'Nanti bila I dah ada kerja, rumah, dan dah ada kereta, motor jugak, hehehe.
I akan masuk lamar u :|'


 ............


I'll be waiting for that moment :) promise.

Sunday 20 November 2011

she's back

YAW EVERYBODEYHHH!


I miss blogging ;) I didnt update any entry for last two weeks. Quite busy maybe. Or should I blame my brodband? =.=' I was busy working last week. Earned some money :p hehe. Then went shopping around KL with my sister. Make new friends while working. My holiday was not that bad, at least i got something to do rather than just staying at home doing nothing. 

I can possibly die staying at home tak buat apa.


Last week on wednesday i went to jengka, hasmira start her new life there :) she'll be very busy for this one whole week. I hate orientation =,=' ugh. Me wish you all the best sis. Though sometimes you're quite annoying, err -.- noo, you're fuuuuu*ing annoying, but i love you :) Study well there and show to the whole world that you can be somebody in the future. Make us proud. I'll pray for you. Always.

Ohhh, I got back here last thursday. He met my mom :) Speechless much sayang? ;) My mom like you. She said 'Suruh dia belajar elok elok. Nanti dah sedia masuk meminang' i was likeee =,= meminang?


OKBAI


Watched movies on friday and today :D
Aku Bukan Tomboy was awesomeeeee :D haha. serious best waa tak tipu luuu. Scha sangat comel rambut pendek ;) teringat time high school dulu rambut pendek. hehe. Tapi tak comel macam Scha =( Happy feet was also not that bad. Those little baby penguins were so cute. Rasa macam nak gigit pun ada. With their cute voices. Awh ;')

Sangat penat berjalan hari ni. Kaki pun sudah melecet. I need to rest. Chow.

ps : I LOVE YOU LIKE A LOVE SONG, MY BABY PENGUIN ;)
pss : And you know what, i feel so lucky having you in my life :)

Friday 18 November 2011

missyou

Im happy right now. And i love him. So much :)

Tuesday 1 November 2011

mama

HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY MAMA
MELEFCHUU SO MUCH <3

ps : planning to buy you baskin robin's cake :)

Monday 31 October 2011

relieve

I really need to do something to relieve my stress. Im not supposed to study last minute. This is what i keep saying for every exam *sigh* But still laa, i'll try my best and give everything this time. Sem two, no more last minute study. Paper 1 maths was fuuuu-king tough, i cried right after Mr Lim picked up the answer sheet. Ive never cried before, because of exam paper, especially maths. But alhamdulillah paper 2 was quite easy. I just hope it can cover what i did on paper 1. And now im done with science computer. Trust me, my brain is now full with memories. And really hope it'll stay till 4.30 pm today :D After that got four more papers to go. But tomorrow got no paper. Great. Cause i really need to rest this evening to gain energy for tonight. Now have to get ready for sc comp paper. Wish me luck peeps.

ps : planning to eat chocolate before entering that fuuu-king room
pss : Much in love with Mohamad Haziq Yaakob :)

FML


ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!

EXAM WEEK IS SO FUUU-KINGG STRESS!

Saturday 29 October 2011

gloomy week

EXAM WEEK = GLOOMY WEEK

WANT TO KNOW WHY?
BECAUSE..

I MISS MY HAZIQ SO MUCH :'(
I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU! I MISS YOU!

ps :biar awak je yang tahu :)

Thursday 27 October 2011

Mine


Im not obsess with this zodiac thingyy, just have fun reading it. It is cool when you can see yourself as you're reading your own zodiac :D heee. This is mine. I copied the one which is slightly same with my personality.

If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed. Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she cannot find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader, a real confident type. She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. She likes to guess her man’s reaction, but at the same time she likes to have many men wanting her. She is a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dares to fight for what she thinks belonged to her. Even she acts confident she mostly feels lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone, she won’t show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has “Faith” in the word “Love”. She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She loves “Freedom”. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow. She likes to be the one who is “Right”, so if you argue with her, let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight-forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say “It’s over” be prepare to leave, she is not testing you. She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean “small loan”. Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad, be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that. You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave. She has many types of jobs because she believes what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a “Working Woman” then you will be OK. If she mad, find a shelter for the “Hurricane” is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of “payback” time. Most people might think of her as “One of a guy”, but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bore you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.

ps : I saw myself when i read this T__T

Wednesday 26 October 2011

Lets talk about Aquarians :)

I google this :) this is soooo me. If u know me well, then you'll absolutely agree with this.

There is one inherent desire of every Aquarian, to be unique and original in all sorts of ways. Sometimes they are cucko and unpredictable especially the ladies. An Aquarius girl is also often described as stubborn, unemotional, sarcastic, rebellious and aloof. She is loyal and at the same time a tad detached and not overtly expressive in her emotions. She is committed and faithful as long as she won't feel being tied down to a relationship.

Dubbed as a butterfly among humans, the Aquarius woman is friend to everyone but belongs to no one. People who can accept her overriding sense of need for freedom will be tremendously loved by the Aquarius girl in return. What is essential in a relationship with the Aquarius woman is honesty including being true to oneself. Often described as subtle and unassuming, the love shown by the Aquarian female is nonetheless without limits. Although passion is rarely a definitive character of the Aquarius, she can be intense at times and be platonic most of the time.

She is not known to be the jealous type nor possessive in her relationships because even before making that crucial commitment, she has carefully scrutinized her partner's character substantial enough to trust him. This trust is hard to come by, especially for an Aquarian that is more difficult to mend once broken.

She expects others to respect her in the same way as she respects them. Finding a partner is often a tedious and long process because of the free-wheeling nature of the Aquarian woman and her tendency not to be expressive in her emotions, a critical factor in romances.

However, once they do decide to get married and build a family of their own, they make loving and caring mothers although they may have initial reservations about motherhood. Expect that the Aquarius mother will never pamper her children and will never be overprotective of them. She is a good and patient listener especially to her children. The key to understanding the unique and original Aquarius female is in giving her ample space to enjoy her personal freedom. Being future-oriented, you can always count on the Aquarius lady to let you get a glance at your future together.

ps : am i unique? :)

evaporation

Hey guys, its 2.35 pm now and i feel so sleepy. I need to rest. One hour nap is enough i guess. Thinking about the subjects i need to cover before next week, make me want to give up. Thinking about what my parents expect from me really make me insane. Haiyak! T__T Just  wish me luck for this upcoming pspm. Im hoping lac operon will come out for bio essay and maths, please be nice. Now im struggling on my chemistry. I need someone who's pro, i mean REALLY pro to teach me the last chapter, ionic equilibria. I'll give everything you want T___T #desperatemuch.

Oh, i wish i'll remember mama's birthday, 1st november. Got no paper on that day. Im planning to buy her something next week. Maybe scarf or brooch? Or cheese cake? I'll decide later. Im planning to follow my sis this holidays. I need to earn some money for second sem -.- Dont want to burden them. So, i need jobs! #yesimsodesperate

I need to rest. Feel much better now.

ps : LMFAO, everyday im shufffee-felin'~ motif? takda motif -.-'
pss : perut sangat sakit since yesterday and seems like ENO was not helpful

nothing much

Here is so lifeless. Feels like im in boarding school, though i never know how it feel being there. ugh. Slightly same with matrik's life i guess. That's why i hate asrama, full with discipline. Im not a robot. I hate people ask me to do this and that. I hate doing the same thing everyday *thats what i do now, here -____-* main lampu suluh kena marah dengan mak guard pulak. CHILL lah! :p I miss home. My bed. My annoying sisters. My mum who talks a lot. My dad, who rarely at home, who always talk crap with me. I miss them. A LOT. Cant wait to see you guys this mid sem break.

To dian and tia *if you guys read my blog* ,

so sad you guys are not here :( miss karaokeing, gossiping, laughing with you guys. hmm. My upcoming holidays means nothing without both of you.

ps : lately ni belakang sakit sangat -.- salah tidur i guess. blame katil matrik

Tuesday 25 October 2011

changrakte

'I tak cari perempuan, tapi i cari perasaan tu'

i love you marshmellow :)

Monday 24 October 2011

just a plan

Im planning to adopt a baby after i finish my matrik. Baby boy. Sounds silly right? And i know mama will totally say 'NO' =.=" I want a baby boy. I really wish i could adopt one. Nak yang comel. He'll call me kak has, and me will call him Aqhil Affan. What a perfect name :)  I'll teach him to be a good boy and NO SMOKING when you grow up. Mama, let me take a good care of him please? :(

ps : mama, nak baby? :) tak kisah la umur 20 nanti saya ada adik lelaki. NAK NAK NAK! :O

Sunday 23 October 2011

hold


Really wish we could grow old together
.
Get married someday
.
Having one happy family perhaps
.
Preparing breakfast, lunch and dinner for you
.
Hug you whenever I scare
.
Be together thru thick and thin
.
Fulfill our dreams together
.
Live for each other for sure
.
If i die first, I'll wait for you there
.
This special bond could never break
.
I promise
 

Saturday 22 October 2011

one time




This one special feeling I couldn't ever imagine
.
I could feel it again after what i've been through before
.
The pain, tears, loneliness, my past had taught me
.
And change me a lot, yes, its hurt, really hurt
.
BUT
.
I promised I wont run from it
.
I'll face it I'll give chance to myself
.
And now, at this moment, I just wanna say
.
I'll fight for this love
.
If there had been written at luh mahfuz
.
That you're the one for me
.
Hold my word, I'll stay till my very last breath
.
I love you

Friday 21 October 2011

really wish

I could turn back time where everything was perfect
.
There's no tears, no heart broken, no hoping
.
No stress, no game, no insulting, no pain, no scars, no wound
.
Im tired of everything, feels like giving up


Dear past
.
Im not blaming you
.
For what I am today
.
Thanks cause giving me
.
Such a valuable lesson
.
Lesson of life


So I'll never stop put such a high hope on myself
.
Me the one who should trust myself
.
I just can pray to Him
.
For what I own today
.
Will be mine till I die
.
Then I'll return everything back


ps : something is missing today and the saddest part is i don't even know what it is 
pss : any clue please? tired of playing game

Thursday 20 October 2011

it's over

Finally it's over! MUET SPEAKING IS OVER :) fuhh lega. It was quite okay and fun! Thanks guys for your cooperate. Even though our marks were not that great, but we've tried our best. At first i was fuc*ing nervous, but then the feelings slowly fade and i feel much better when i started to talk, though my confidence level was quite bad. haha. Persetan kan. Concentrate on other muet papers. I really need to score for my reading paper.

Guys, I need to gain my spirit back, my confidence back. For me to prepare for the upcoming pspm. 8 days to go. I need to get scholarship, i dont want to burden my family. Anymore. Im lost now. I need something to push me up. To make me feel like studying, really hard. 8 days left for me to cover everything. I know i can do it but it's quite impossible right? I mean for just 8 days to read up and remember everything is IMPOSSIBLE. Urghh, somebody please help me. Please.

ps : can we stop the time for awhile?

Tuesday 18 October 2011

Study week

Two weeks of study week will totally make me sick. Playing around, day dreaming, walking around college in hope seeing few hot guys but end up with 'kekecewaan yang teramat sangat', gossiping with roommates, talking crap, watching my bieber 'never say never' awhhh lefchu and imma eatchu bieber, love it whenever he flip his hair *_* okay pengsan. Doing math revision, haha rajin tak saya? :O and end up with serious headache. Math is killing me these few days. And the best part of study week is, MAGGI :D Trust me, everybody bought thousands of it for this two weeks. Alasan? 'Malas nak turun and nak study sampai lebam dekat atas' -___-" Tak jadi bangang ke korang duduk bilik one whole day tak keluar langsung?

MUET SPEAKING TEST
Mine is on thursday. YUPP THIS THURSDAY. Need to print the slip and speak english frequently. I am quite  bad when it come to speak. So dear examiners, get ready to face meh. I'll talk like idiot. Haha. But, i'll try my best. Wish me luck. Doakan lidah ni laju je berkata kata nanti :]

ps : Cant wait till 3rd nov. Miss them so much.
pss : But surely i'll miss you so much for the whole holidays :']

Sunday 16 October 2011

P.J

Kimia - Melda Ahmad
Aku mula jatuh hati kepadamu
Setelah kau kata cinta padaku
Masing masing dulu punya pasangan
Akhirnya kita bersama
Pertama kali kita bersua bertentang mata
Terasa ada kimia di antara kita
Kau kucup pipiku kau bisikkan cintamu
Kau kata baby i love you kau cairkan hatiku
Bahagia ku rasa
Di saat kita berdua bersama
Memandang bulan terang
Menyaksi bintang bintang
Kau seru akulah pelangi cintamu

ps : After repair gitar, i'll learn how to play this song :)
pss : Am i your 'pelangi cinta' ? :)

Saturday 15 October 2011

terima kasih

Trying my best here to define love

Real love is more terrifying than entering exams or ghosts. If you fall in love, it wont stop; Your brain is on fire and that runs through your body. It runs down quickly to your toes. Your blood pumps in waves when your eyes meet. The lumberjack inside your chest carries a big hammer and inside he hit. Its pain. Real love.

Love is undefined. What? -.- Just now you said, trying your best to define love. Then you said love is undefined. The hell? Dont talk crap lah. Err, I dont know how to define love actually. Some people said when you started to miss someone, I mean that someone is someone lah. Not your friend or bestfriend or.. See, I am not good in explaination =.=' But even sometimes we could fall with our own best friend, different gents lah -.- Quite cool you know, like really fall in love with your best buddy. He knows you the most. Your imperfections especially, yet he still want you and never ask you to change, not even a little. If you ever found this kinda guy, listen, GRAB him. Dont ever dare to let him go. You'll regret forever, till you die.

Err, I think I am out of topic

So, here we go. For me, when this one boy starts to annoy you and always make fun of you. Trying his best to be with you to make you angry. Always wanna have fight with you. Laughing like hell whenever you fall. This is love.

When this one girl, like really really like someone, steal that boy's phone number, snap his pictures without him noticing, do thousands of tricks to make that boy at least notice about her presence, and at last admit her feeling towards him, whether thru phone, letter, or even thru a simple conversation. We can see this kinda scene usually at manga and korean movies. Guys, if there's a girl willing to drop her ego like this for you, DONT let her go, because this is love.

There's a guy, a special guy, he loves this one lucky girl so much and didn't put much hope, that the girl will loves him back. Just he really want that girl to know his true feeling. Its okay for him if she dont give any sign that she could love or even like him the same way like he do. As long as loving her and wait for her to love him back can make him happy, he'll never give up. This is love.

For me, in love you have to be yourself. To love yourself like you want others to love you. Love can create miracles.

ps : actually baru lepas tengok 'the notebook' for thousands time -.- and im still trying my best to define real love, true love thingyy.

DOES IT REALLY EXIST?