counting the days

It has been one month since I left matriks. And guess what, it is quite boring to just stay at home, locked myself in my room and eat like a monster. Haha. I think I'm gaining weigh for this whole holidays. Ughh. Work? I'd prefer going to work. At least I'm wasting my time to get my own money. But yah, since I'm not that experienced in this 'being extras' thinghyy, so what can I do is just wait till those people need more extras *sigh*

Oh yah, the result will be coming out this Tuesday. It hurts my stomach everytime I think about it. I just hope I could get dentistry for my degree. And then everyone will continuously smile because of me. Heee.

My baby came here to meet me last week. Thank you for the moment sayang :) It was a great week with you. I keep on saying I can't believe we could stay till today. And yah, I really meant it. No one could ever understand me like you do and no one could ever see how wonderful I am like you do. I don't need you to be perfect. I don't need you to be rich, I don't need you to be popular, I just need you to be you, my Haziq :) cause I keep falling in love with the same person everyday.

People says when both of you make a promise to not leave each other and will stay together forever, there will be this one special bond that no one could possibly break it. And both of them are considered engaged. Sooooo,

PROUDLY TO SAY THAT I'M ENGAGED NOW :)

You're not alone

*Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne*

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side

You know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't give in

No I won't give in

Keep holding on

Cause you know we'll make it through

Just stay strong

Cause you know I'm here for you

I'm here for you

There's nothing you can say

Nothing you can do

There's no other ways when it comes to the truth

So, keep holding on

Cause you know we'll make it through

Make it through

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This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit it. Forever is a long, long time, but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side. Tell me, everyday, I get to wake up to see that smile. I wouldn't mind it at all. I'll be your arms that will hold you at your weakest times, eyes that will see your beauty at your ugliest times, and a heart that will love you at your worst. I love you for who you are, whatever mistakes you made, no matter how terrible, even when you're being a jerk. I love the person you were when we first met, and the person you're now become. I don't think how to stop loving you.

ps : I'll miss you after this. Really hope the distance we'll meet after this could make us stronger than before. I love you Haziq.

standing till the end

Still remember two years ago i took a first step here. All those innocent faces. Mama's tears the moment she's letting me go. Now it's time for me to go back home, and leaving, continuing my journey after this season end. Waiting for other new challenges to come. But no worries cause all those memories will forever stay here, deep in my heart. Always. Good bye Penang Matriculation College :')

And yeah i'm gonna leave everything but i'll grab your hand, cause we'll walk thru the same path after this. Just you and me. No one else. I believe the distance we'll meet after this will make us stronger. You're not going to lose me. I am your FW and you're my FH. We'll standing till the end. I love you, Haziq.

It's eighth!

Really can't believe we have made this far.

Together. I can't believe you're real. You know, the man who could stay and hold my hand for such a long time without even complaining how hard it was to take care of me, to handle me. Maybe for some couples it's not such a long time, but, for me this is the toughest month and I'm quite afraid of this month. But we manage to go thru right? Though it was quite tough at the beginning.

Someone told me before, there will be this one person I'll never get bored of, though have to see his face everyday every second. I'll never get bored though we texting right after we met. I'll never get bored hearing his voice every night.

Now I know, this is real.

The day when I look at the same person and I saw something more than I did the day before.

When my tummy says its kind of bloated with those colorful butterflies.

And the mind sings Arcadian songs, beautifully.

I finally agree with Micheal learns to rock that I won't fear tomorrow.

I'll protect this relationship, fight for you, fight for us. I want to show you that I'm real and I'm not like the rest.

.THIS LOVE IS REAL.

much in love with this guy

I just want you that's it.

All your flaws, mistakes, smiles, jokes, sarcasm.

Everything.

I just want you.

Masa

Aku cuma nak hargai apa yang masih tertinggal. Salah ke? Aku takut nanti kelak aku sesal bila tahu aku terlepas walau sesaat. Kau takkan tahu betapa berharganya sesaat tu untuk aku. Bila satu hari nanti kau tersedar, selak balik lembaran yang lalu, segala memori suka duka, rugi kan kalau ada sesaat dua yang terlepas? Masa tu, semua takkan kembali seperti dulu. Sebab apa? Masing masing sibuk menjaga hati sendiri. Sibuk melayan perasaan tak tentu hala. Entah, aku cuma takut. Masa hadapan tak pasti. Entah kita panjang umur atau tak. Entah esok lusa aku masih bernafas. Entah bumi ni hidup berapa lama. Aku takut.

My hearts

For all the pain I've suffered before, all the heart broken I've faced before, all the loneliness I got thru before, for all those scars and wounds that can never fade, for all the shits that happened before, I must thank to Allah cause letting me learned such a precious lessons to teach me in my my growing process. This is my path, and I'm going to fight every difficulties until i reach my destiny.

The most important persons in my life, Mama and Papa. Who let me to see the world. Who knows me well, who can handle me. They teach me a lot. I know I'm not good daughter. Always created problems, make them disappointed with me, especially Mama. I'm sorry for not being such a nice daughter, but I promise you one thing. I'll be with you, I'll take care of you for the rest of my life. Thanks for everything. I miss you guys so much. I miss our old time. I miss spending time with both of you. Papa's silly jokes. How he makes us laughed. I miss everything. I promise I'll make you guys proud for having such an adorable daughter like me. I promise.

The second most important person in my life is you :) The way you make me smile, no one could describe it. The way you handle my temper, no one could know it. The way you accept my flaws, no one could imagine it. The way we're staring at each others' eyes, no one could understand it. Thanks cause being here whenever I really need someone to share everything. We'll fight everything together. I'll stay with you forever. And I'll never stop counting the years, until I am officially yours, can't wait to hear those three special words on this one special day.

'Aku terima nikahnya...'


Ps : Aku rasa aku dah ada segalanya. Terima kasih atas kebahagiaan ni.