Love, Haziq

A letter for you...

It feels good to know that you have that one special person in your life. The one that will never get bored talking to you, looking at you, get mad at you over the same things again and again. I'd never thought before that I could ever found and fall madly in love with that person, which is you. These past 3 years and a half drove me crazy, all those ups and downs we've successfully got through, our stupid arguments over something that were completely idiots, but we are still here... together. We are getting strong everyday. I don't want to be like other cliche couples, I want to be us, creating our own stories songs quotes jokes dreams future family. It will always be me and you against the world. If you could only know how I wish I could magically turn back times and go back to the night you proposed me, and start all over again with you so that we could never grow old, stay young forever. If that kind of thing can possibly be done, I'll definitely choose to go back to our memories. You are worth it. A guy like you are one in a million and how lucky I am to own your heart. Maybe I am not so good in throwing something like this into words, but by writing here I want you to know that I am madly, crazily, mysteriously in love with you. Thanks for being there for me whenever I need you. You are the best boyfriend, bestfriend, partner in crime, enemy, soulmate EVER. I love you to the moon and back. Keep your promise that you'll never let me go.

Just ignore my chubby face I'm a lot skinnier now pfftt

My skincare review

Some of you guys have already known that I used to be one of the Amyera Beauty's seller. Yup I used that skincare two years ago... I guess. To be honest at first I really loved the effect of it to my face. I even bought one set of the product for my whole body. My skin became so fair and flawless. All my freckles were also gone. I was so satisfied w Amyera Beauty. But then as everybody knows, people will never satisfies for such a long time period. On one fine day when I was happily scrolling my instagram, I found this one interesting coffee body scrub. I bought it and I really liked it cause my skin turned out to be so soft and moist. But.... Then I dont why I was so gatal mengenyam pergi try that scrub dekat my face. Konon nak moist lagi lah then before. A week after I aplied that scrub to my face, suddenly I woke up in the morning w sekelompok pimples and they growing day by day until they conquered most of my face esp my forehead. I cant even looked at my own face in the mirror. Mama lagi lah risau tak tentu everyday. After I realized my face is getting worst, I stopped using Amyera Beauty and that evil scrub. My innocent face became oily and sensitive. I tried so many products after that but none of them really worked on my skin. I tried wis putih, belleza, radiglow, body shop's products, kiss mud foam and mask. I even tried traditional's treatment like put white part of the egg at the pimples, letak air kayu manis yang kita gosok dekat batu lesung, put soda bicarbonate, aaaa macam macam lagi lah. They didnt make my skin worst but they didint worked on getting my skin any better. You know what I mean? Pimples and all the scars were still there. Tak nak blah. Tak guna. I dont somehow I think Amyera Beauty do give long term bad effects to our skin cause some of my customers also faced this same problem as mine.

Then... I almost gave up w my face. I was like, "dah la pegi mampus biar je muka macam ni lantak" Oneday mama suddenly called me and told me she wanna buy this one supplement from Sofea Estetik for me. Aurora SX. At first I was not interested cause I dont really like capsules supplement. Takut rosak buah pinggang later. But mama keep on pujuk and cakap after muka dah okay then I can stop. So i agreed to try it. Guess what? After one week I can already noticed the difference. Though all the scars didnt really gone until now, at least semua jerawat nanah dissapeared! And hopefully never come back 🙏 now I am just focusing on how to delete semua scars yang ada dekat muka ni. My current skincare routine is...

1. St Ives Apricot Scrub (Blemishes Control)

2. Trial set Babiesblink (5 in 1)

So far these are my skincare routin and not to forget my supplement. I am currently waiting for my new supplement, nikko placenta white. Since my skin is not as bad as before, so I decided to change my supplement. Actually I think supplement is so important for me cause if you guys know me since high school you can definitely see the difference. I looked so pale and unhealthy back then. After I consumed supplement, I look much better now 😳 heeee.

Okay I have to go now! See you guys later! xoxo 💋

2015

Sorry cause I've abandoned you for such a long time my blogieeee :'( Actually I was quite busy w my life these past few months. Okay where should I start...

Oh yah, about my current life... Nothing much. Just I'm a second year Mathematical student now. Yayy at last I know the feeling of having juniors walking around my faculty. Bahahah padahal takda apa yang istimewa pun. Rasa macam sangat tua ada lah since I am so much older than most of them. Most of my schoolmates dah graduate and some of them are now studying master. Me... mengesot like a siput. Takpa lah rezeki masing-masing. At least everything seems balance and good to me, wink! ;) I got two midsem papers this week and one more next week. Wish I could manage to score at least A- for each of them.

About my social life, emm if you know me since school or KMPP, you'll know how hard for me to make friends or should I say close friends. Since I am not an attachable person, most of my coursemates are quite awkward with me. So yahh, I am still the same person now, here... at UKM. Some people said that I am anti-social, I dont have many friends. I'd rather have a few awesome friends, than to have thousands of two-faced friends. And plus I'm a shy-shy cat person hihihihi. Just come and tegur me first, promise I'll be as nice I can to you.

Okay, I guess that's all so far...

Bye! xoxo

Lama sudah

Fuhhh! Fuhhh! *Tiup habuk*

Lamanya tak update apa apa dekat sini. Dulu rajin. Sejak hidup jadi kelam kabut, jarang nak bercerita di sini. Since sekarang my life is getting better, so here we are. Okay since you guys tau Im continuing my studies dekat UKM. I got bachelor in Biochemical Engineering at first for 2012/2013 batch. But then for I dont know how many times, I ruined everything. Sem satu untuk kos kejuruteraan biokimia was sucks! And end up dengan pointer 2.2. Memalukannya. But maybe because tak minat and study macam mana sekali still tak faham. Siap buat nota warna warni okay but still... *krik krik krik* So habis sem satu dulu terus decide untuk tukar kos. Stupid decision sebab akan bazirkan 2 tahun macam tu je. Tapi apa lagi pilihan yang ada? Time tu macam blur which course should I take. Nak amik major je. So lepas buat istikharah and semua doa doa minta petunjuk, I end up tukar Mathematical Science. Fuhh macam lari mulut buaya, masuk mulut harimau. Then I have to postponed my semester for almost 6 months untuk tunggu batch yang berikutnya. For last 6 months, I learned how to bake! Yah dari tangan yang tak penah pegang tepung, pewarna, loyang, oven and so on, ke tangan yang dah get used dengan all that stuffs. So thats how I wasted my 6 months selain dari berjumpa and berdating dengan buah hati tersayang *wink wink*

So............

Now dah masuk minggu ke-8 di sini untuk my new course, Mathematical Science. So far, okay lah. Takda masalah yang berat and I can solve all my problems here. And guess what? My life is getting better now. Alhamdulillah. Even banyak sangat masalah before ni, I managed to settle it one by one. Semuanya indah indah saja sekarang.

Lihat awan masih mendung

Petir guruh saling berlawan

Langit semacam tahu gundah gulana hati

Duduk mendongak di tepi jendela

Menunggu hari cerah tak kunjung tiba

Sekejap sekejap langsir ku selak

Sekejap sekejap ku masuk ke kamar

Tapi hati tak pernah putus mengharap

Bila langit nak cerah kembali

Tunggu tunggu langsung pejam

Tak lama aku tersedar

Bukan kerana alarm berbunyi

Tetapi semacam ada cahaya mengganggu kelopak mata

Ku selak langsir merah jambu ku

Bukan sahaja langit cerah terhidang

Ditambah lagi warna warni pelangi

Lihat--

Tuhan itu maha kaya

Diberi kau hujan petir guruh

Lalu setelah semua bersurai

Diberi pula keindahan pelangi

Jangan ingat hidup hanya penuh kegelapan

Kadang kadang Tuhan beri sedikit ujian

Untuk lihat layak atau tidak

Untuk kita merasa pelangiNya

Haaaa, about me and Haziq. Yes we are still together *smile* Dia tu degil. Tak pernah nak pergi padahal siapa je lah Hasmida ni. Mungkin dulu terpaksa berhadapan dengan semua buaya. Rupanya tu semua jalan untuk kita berjumpa. Tuhan dah susun elok perjalan hidup kita. Kalau boleh nak terus jumpa masa darjah satu boleh terus couple. Hehehe. Thanks for still standing here, right here with me. Thanks for still saying that you love me, you need me. Terima kasih untuk hari hari kita yang dah lepas, yang akan datang. I've learned something thru our relationship, No matter how hard, how hurt, how difficult, how sucks, how stupid, how shits, don't let go. 2 years and 3 months. I love you to the moon and back. And I know you'll never go cause you are so stupid for loving a stupid girl like me.

ps : Rindu Haziq minggu depan baru dapat jumpa :(

Writing a letter for you

Dear Haziq,

It's been a while since i update something about you here. So, now im going to write something. Something special that could probably touch your fragile heart :)

Okay, i know these few days or should i say few weeks? If you realize, everything's getting tougher between us. Sometimes i do feel like something is wrong with us. And sometimes i feel like giving up. It is normal because this is love. Where we can get hurt easily just because we still care. I wont give up sayang. I swear to God i wont stop chasing you i wont stop loving you i wont stop bugging you i wont easily stop. Cause you are the one for me. You are the most complicated man i've ever known and yes, i am willingly to deal with it for the rest of my life. Just stay forever please?

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Jika malam ini kau keluar melihat jendela

Jengukkan lah bintang kita yang satu itu

Apa? Takut kita melihat bintang yang berbeza?

Tidak akan sayang :)

Sebab kau bisa rasa hati aku

Hati kita semacam ada link

Kau tahu bintang mana yang aku maksudkan

Aku percaya kau tahu

Sudah sudah lah ye sayang dengan rajuk kau tu?

Meh sini dekat aku. Biar aku pujuk peluk erat

Agar hatimu lega seleganya seperti selalu

Jangan risau aku masih ada

Insha Allah sampai kita sama sama hembus nafas terakhir

Janji tau!

ps: I suka gambar kaki kita ni :) wiwiwiwiwiwiw~

Forever mine

A year and seven months

How can a person whom you hang out with all your friends years ago is the one who makes your day brigther today? A person whom you never thought of a relationship with and whom you never replied his messages on time ages ago but cannot go through a day without his messages today? HIS business.

Jodoh itu rahsia Allah.

Throughout the years, the eyes have been set to this man no matter how rough he is, how moody he is, how annoying he is, how gedik he is, how silly he is and all the (how)s that I couldn't express in words. Love.

 

Keep calm

Hari esok bermula perjuangan baru. Di tempat sama yang sejujurnya masih asing bagi aku. Ye aku ni terlalu susah nak bersatu dengan sesuatu. Perlukan sedikit masa. Atau mungkin banyak. Esok aku akan mula mengeluh seperti selalu. Merungut sana sini. Walhal satu kerja tak bergerak. Mungkin semua sibuk dengan azam semester baru. Tapi aku. To be honest, aku penat dengan dengan azam yang pengakhirannya cuma masih azam yang dah berhabuk. Sebab tu aku malas nak tanam apa apa. Cuma aku berdoa supaya pintu hati aku ni dibuka seluasnya untuk aku tempuh semester ni. Supaya hati aku tak sekeras dulu tak seego dulu. Ingat hasmida, ego kau tu tak bawa ke mana. Aku tak tahu apa bakal aku tempuh kali ni. Tapi aku harap semua nya baik saja. Kalau ada yang tak baik, harap hati aku keras lah nak lalui. Tak nak nangis rengek macam budak lagi. Buat malu.Yang lepas tu aku tinggal sebagai pengajaran dengan harapan tak akan berulang. Hari esok akan lebih baik harapnya.

KEEP CALM

AND

MOVE ON