angst

What a lonely heart. Feels like it's too dark here. Sometimes when few lights are coming, I'm searching for your shadows. I'm waiting for 'em. But still, they were not coming. Not even once. I'm sitting here alone crying like an idiot. No one cares. I'm not that strong to face everything in just a day. But at least I'm trying though tears keep on falling. Please make me strong. Give strength to my body so that I can keep standing on my own feet. Give strength to my heart so that it can never be broken.

ps : thanks mama, for lending me your shoulder.

Aku mahu.

Lihat saja wajah manisnya.

Ya,

Memang aku tidak pasti apa yang Tuhan hidangkan untuk aku esok. Dan aku tidak pasti hidup berdua tu bagaimana sebenarnya. Kalau hidup itu seksa, biar aku lapah seksa itu dengan dia. Kalau hidup itu indah, biar aku nikmati keindahan itu dengan dia. Kalau aku jadi buruk, biar aku buruk dengan dia. Kalau dia perengus, biar aku hadap rengus dia.

Aku tidak pasti bahagia ini takat mana.

Tapi dalam tiap tapak kaki aku memanjat mencarinya.

Dan dalam tiap gelak, tiap senyum, tiap tangis, tiap marah, tiap sakit, tiap payah, aku mahu dengan dia.

Aku pasti aku mahu dia ada,

hari ini, esok, lusa, dan hari hari seterusnya.

A part of me

What a gloomy day when I can't even feel the presence of 'us' anymore, when the 'loneliness' is like following me all the time, when there's no light in my day time, when the spirit start to flew away from us, when we start to lose our way together. To lost forever is the scariest thing I've ever thought would be. I miss us, the old days, when the way you look at me was different. I'll always wait patiently here, till these gloomy feelings go away and bring us back our old precious time. Honestly, I miss those memories.