Kata aku

Kata orang,

"Jangan terlalu cinta kelak nanti memakan diri"

Maaf, kata aku,

Sekali aku cinta, selagi cinta tu setia, sampai mati aku cinta. Biar tidak sempurna di mata yang lain asal cukup sempurna di mata aku. Dicintai dan disayangi adalah anugerah terindah yang Tuhan berikan padaku. Andai Tuhan memberikan kesempatan untuk aku hidup lebih lama, biar lah aku laluinya dengan dia.

Mungkin ada yang mengata di belakang,

"Ala, time tengah hangat bercinta memang macam tu. Duk sayang sana sayang sini, entah jadi entah tidak"

Maaf sekali lagi, 

Hati ini hati aku. Aku sorang yang rasa. Biar aku cuba pertahankan sehabisnya, walau akhir nanti semuanya mungkin hilang. Walau akhirnya mungkin sia sia, aku tetap akan berjuang hingga saat terakhir hingga sudah betul tiada harapan. Sekurangnya takkan ada rasa sesal kelak sebab aku dah cuba sehabis baik.

ps : Orang yang duk kutuk pasangan bercinta tu kalau dia yang bercinta mesti lagi meroyan kan?       

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Kadang kadang kita lupa. Kita leka. Tanpa kita sedar, hati dia terluka. Kalau boleh nak sangat aku putar balik masa supaya hati dia aku jaga sebaiknya. Kalau bedaya aku ingin kembali pada mulanya kita bertemu. Aku ingin kenal hati budi mu sebaiknya. Kecewa bila tahu aku gagal.

Naluri hati ni kuat. Buktinya sekali pun berjuta kali aku tekad nak pergi, sekalipun aku tak sanggup nak beganjak apatah lagi pergi untuk selamanya. Harap jodoh kita kuat. Harap hati kita kuat.

HARAP KAU ADALAH UNTUK AKU SELAMANYA. 

Dunia kita

Bermula di matrik you usha I dulu tak tahu malu

I memang tak perasan so I buat tak tahu

You terus usha dan mengusha sehingga oneday you admit

Oh my dear I'm sorry cause I dah bepunya

Bila I single you masuk line then I accept you on the spot

The truth is I dont know why but you really stole my heart

But sikit sikit je I merajuk you selalu sabar pujuk

Lari around matrik and always dengan dunia kita

Let me tell you that I love you

And I never wanna wrong take my hand baby

Come go thru with me

Let me tell you that I miss you

And I never wanna lose you

You're my heart baby

My life in incomplete without you

Dalam pada I gembira

Sometimes I feel insecure juga

Cause I'm afraid losing you

And I always want you to be mine forever

Please be mine forever

ps : Me dedicate this song for Haziq :)

pss: I'll sing it to you if you suruh.   

Life currently

It's too different here. Still hard for me to adapt. Everything is on my own and all of them definitely make me sick. Feels like wanna quit, run as far as i could from this shits. But when i re-think about it, i'm bringing everybody's hope which is too big. I just want them to look at me here. I have to carry every subjects by my own. The tutors, lecturers, the way they teach is not suitable with my way. I just cant accept it. Facing headache everyday, took panadols after classes. I dont know for how long i could still stand strong here. Give me strength. I need a backup plan to rearrange back everything, schedules, productive time, rest time, my powerful nap which is supposed to be 5 to 15 minutes but always end up i woke  up two hours later. Ergh. I have to plan everything back. Wake up! This is life and i really need to face it. What will i do now, will definitely create ME in the future. I have to be somebody and have a good position and salary too. It's freaking me out cause i'm starting to think about my 'working-life'. The interview to get position, paper work, the attitude of a good employee which is not me. I dont wanna be a 'late-stater'. I have to start from now and it's still early for me to move. I think.

AND...

Everytime i'm giving up, there will be someone, this one special man. Who's always support me, keep on saying that i can do it. Make me believe every words that came out from his mouth is the spirit for me to keep on stay here. Imagining our life 5 years from now make me decide to still go on and believe that i was made for you, Haziqyaakob ♥

Haziq

Wahai bakal suamiku, terbayang sejenak hidup kita lagi 4 5 tahun kelak. Bahagia ke kita? Selalu ke aku tersenyum nanti? Senang ke kita? Cukup makan pakai ke kita? Apa ujian yang bakal datang nanti?

Tapi sayang,

satu aku janji, jika kelak hidup kita susah aku akan lapah semuanya bersama.

Jika istana kita ditimpa musibah aku akan kuat bertahan bersama.

Jika semangat mu patah aku akan jadi tulang belakangmu.

Itu janji aku...

Selamanya bersama

ps : i miss you so much ;'(

When storm's coming

I'll talk to you. Say I'm sorry...

Say I want to support you. Say I wanna be by your side. No matter what it takes...

Say I'll stand with you when you take on the world...

Say when it comes to you, going to the moon is as easy as breathing...

Show you what I can do. Show you the true power of love...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Love is not all about the rainbows and kisses ♥

Its also about the storm and disaster each other brings ♥

But all it takes is for the other to be the umbrella ♥

And I know, if I give up now, I'll never find true love ♥

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Thanks for sending me this one special guy who can accept my flaws, mistakes, attitude, and accept me the way I am. To be honest,

YOU'RE ONE IN A MILLION MHY :) 

a beautiful year with you

Still remember the moment when i was staring at you for the first time. Can't really forget your eyes. They caught mine without me realizing it. Now i couldn't ever imagine my life without seeing those eyes.

Now you're mine for one year. Happy first year anniversary sayang. I hope it is not too late for me to post. What a beautiful year we have spent together. I feel safe here. I feel safe in all our insecurity. I’m wrapped inside them. I hope that’s okay. All our fears and complications, they like each other. They fit perfectly into each other’s molds. And it feels lovely to have something slip into place without having to think. Let’s close our eyes together. See what we want to see.

Hey You, I am really afraid. These indescribably perfect events, they don’t happen to me. I’m scared my insecurities won’t let you in. I am scared they will scare you. Beyond everything, above everything, I am terrified you might run away. Please don’t run away without me. Because you’re indescribably perfect. In every sense of the word.I’m going to hold on tight.

You and I. Yours and mine. Can we stay here and be insecure together?

ps: Please.. Hug me tightly like there's not tomorrow for us.